Saturday, July 25, 2015

Kepada kosong

Pada debur ombak aku bertanya
Hati siapa kah yang akan tenang, melihat sisi yang terus kosong, hanya terisi di kala ingat
Pada buih sisaan gelombang yang menyisir pasir,
Akankah ada tanda ketika saat langkahku harus dipatok pergi

Pada angin yang menyelongsong tiap helai rambutku,
Kemanakah harus aku beradu
Niat hati terus berpacu, tapi kian pedih goresan pilu
Lalu siapa harus kutodong jawab
Ketika tangis jadilah lalu

Kepada malam aku bertumpu,
Memohon usai lah semua luka
Kepada bulan yang belum lagi bulat,
Kiranya kah mau kau membawanya kembali

(for my little girl that grown up faster. Be strong!)

Monday, July 13, 2015

Dear Mom that gone

Once I was really obsessive about reaching everything I think is good. Once I was full of bullshit dreams. Once she believed that I can...

If one ever asked me, who is my truly inspiration all my life, no doubt only one person comes up. Mother of mine. She had every reason to be admired by almost everyone.

Kind hearted and young spirited, basically draw her up. She is everything I needed. If you ever wonder why I could be who I am right now, then she is the answer.

She never said no for every impossible dreams I had. She never ever said dont to every exploration I did. She never said she was disappointed by me. And she trust each story that I told even once it sounded like bulls. Cause she knew I would never hurt her with lies.

Exactly this date four years ago, she was gone forever. Phisically. Burried and stop breathing. Even at heart I always know she is close, she is still missed. For this four terribly hard years without her, only me grieving like no others would ever know.